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alicebentleyMiddle of the night seems to be the only time I stop bouncing off walls long enough to post something here...
I haven't had one of these "wide awake at 1 am" sessions in a long time, but here it is past 3:30 and still no sign of sleepiness. No caffeine today either, so that's not it. Hodgepodge of distracting emotions is the most likely culprit, something I don't usually experience to say nothing of acknowledge.
Lessee... there's a bit of stress from the income side of things, and the twice weekly go-around of personal inferiority because I haven't been much of a contributor in the last five years, and a positive sinkhole in the last year. Sure, it's an investment in future earnings, but there's still another year to go, and the pinch is being felt now. AND there's the fact that all my fellow students are fully employed, so it's not like that's really an excuse.
There's the increasing desire to get to be better known to a number of the writers and artists whose work I follow so happily, and the realization that there just isn't a good mechanism for it. I don't have any stunningly original thoughts to contribute to the various message boards - and "I love what you do!" isn't much of a conversation starter. At least when I had the bookstore we could talk about sales options, but now I feel like some creepy stalker. I'm not even sure why I want to make these connections so much, but I do.
It does remind me that it's past time for me to assemble my annual Webcomics at ComiCon listing - that will be a fine way to fill out this sleepless morning. More here as I have it!
I haven't had one of these "wide awake at 1 am" sessions in a long time, but here it is past 3:30 and still no sign of sleepiness. No caffeine today either, so that's not it. Hodgepodge of distracting emotions is the most likely culprit, something I don't usually experience to say nothing of acknowledge.
Lessee... there's a bit of stress from the income side of things, and the twice weekly go-around of personal inferiority because I haven't been much of a contributor in the last five years, and a positive sinkhole in the last year. Sure, it's an investment in future earnings, but there's still another year to go, and the pinch is being felt now. AND there's the fact that all my fellow students are fully employed, so it's not like that's really an excuse.
There's the increasing desire to get to be better known to a number of the writers and artists whose work I follow so happily, and the realization that there just isn't a good mechanism for it. I don't have any stunningly original thoughts to contribute to the various message boards - and "I love what you do!" isn't much of a conversation starter. At least when I had the bookstore we could talk about sales options, but now I feel like some creepy stalker. I'm not even sure why I want to make these connections so much, but I do.
It does remind me that it's past time for me to assemble my annual Webcomics at ComiCon listing - that will be a fine way to fill out this sleepless morning. More here as I have it!
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Date: 2009-07-07 03:14 pm (UTC)Why not take the value of the relationships and create something that generates value for both sides?
You could create an artist association, which offerred services such as con and art show bookings for a nominal fee, generating an income for you, providing a central clearinghouse for contacting all the artists, and giving them an opportunity to increase their sales and appearance fees.
Relationships have value - you just have to think of a way to capitalize on that value in a way that benefits both parties.
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Date: 2009-07-07 04:44 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2009-07-07 06:55 pm (UTC)Let me reassure you that what you are likely experiencing is a combination of graduate study stress (even though you're on break right now), hormonal crises (I don't really need to elaborate, do I?), and general malaise because it's summer and you are still Very Far Away from many of your family & friends. So, acknowledge the discomfort and move along.
Now that you've done that, let your common-sense self realize that any artist or SFF person who attracts your attention ought to be flattered. All they would have to do is a brief web search to realize that you are one of the coolest people in this universe (definitely NOT a creepy stalker). I firmly believe that most folks would be thrilled to have you on their side and offering assistance with their biz.
You have never been at a loss for ideas (practical or not!) to keep yourself occupied. Put one of those fanciful ideas to work, and help someone else, too. Hang in there Alice. Keep writing. xoxo